Sara's Journal

Well today, I skipped school. I decided to do a fast today and totally blew it with chocolate, DOTS, steak and shake and bagel bites! But, I took a laxative around 5:30 so, hopefully that will fix everything. Today I laid around the house and ate... I think starting Thursday I will not eat anything for a week... that's going to take a lot of diet pills! wish me luck! That's it for today, not very eventful.

Well, yesterday at school this girl got money stolen out of her purse during gym class. My friend and I were late to class today so she assumed it was us. Well, it wasn't. This girl is so insane too, she like beats the shit out of people for looking at her the wrong way and I'm not exagerrating! She has like punched 2 teachers this year so far. Well, the administration took my friend and I to the principle's office right from the gymnasium and searched us both... neither one of us had her money... DUH! that's what we said in the first place! But the principle did take my cigarettes and lighters, that bitch. But thankfully he didn't notice that the prescription in my purse was phentermine (my diet pill) because I would have been fucked! The bottle has my name on it, but we are not supposed to carry prescriptions with us at school. This girl called me last night and told me that she was going to "beat my face in" and she meant it. I am so scared, I am 5'6" and weigh 105 right now, no muscle, she's about 5'5" and 145 but it's all muscle and she knows how to use it! I have no idea what to do aout this if any one has any ideas please let me know! I'm so fucking scared of her... even though I did not have her money she is convinced that it was me.

Hi, everyone. My name is Sara. I'm new to this website, I currently have anorexia and I have had it for about 3 years now, but I have been dieting for as long as I can remember. I believe a person's past experiences have a huge effect on how they live their life. I have a ton of beautiful skinny cousins and growing up with them, if they didn't eat dinner, I didn't either I wouldn't consume more calories than them when I was around them. When I was in middle school the popular girls would tell me how I would "never have cheek bones" or that my "pants shouldn't be a size 14 (kids) in 5th grade" and recently My boyfriend and I broke up because he cheated on my 3 times (yeah,he was a bastard!) and I can't help but think it was because he wanted someone with a better body so I wanted to make him jealous and it worked, he came crawling back and i shut the door in his face (take that shithead!). So, now I'm just trying to make myself happy, and being 95 pounds would make me ecstatic! So, there's a little backround information about me I will put stats at the bottom, and work on getting a picture on here.



Well, today, I haven't eaten anything except some gunny vitamins (18 cals) and 2 fiber tabs (4 cals) and I am planning on chewing about 20 sticks of gum (100 cals) it helps me not get hungry. I recently gained about 10 pounds (up to 112) last week because I started having crazy side effects from my diet pills and as a result I didn't take them last week. I take Phentermine 37.5 and I usually take it every few days, but for about a month I took it everyday, I got down to 102 lbs. and loved it. But I got really sick, I was tired all the time, I felt like I was going to have a heart attack, my heart was racing and I broke out in hives all over my body, and I was too weak to stand. So, I didn't take it at all and totally couldn't control myself, I ate everything you could think of. I'm back on track now and taking the phentermine again... I am back down to 107,and I'm 5'6" so, I definately want to loose about 10 pounds as soon as possible. If anyone has any tips or another good diet pill to try let me know(I only have about 2 weeks worth left...starting to panic).

Stats:
1. Name (what we can call you): Sara
2. Age : 16
3. Country you live in: united states
4. What is your disorder (anorexia, bulimia, ed-nos, etc..), and how long have you had it?: anorexia, for about 2-3 years
5. What feelings do you have about your ED? it's just become a part of my daily life...
6. Height: 5'6
7. Current Weight: 107
8. Highest weight: 117
9. Lowest weight: 102
10. Goal weights (short and long term): short term-100 long term-93-97ish
11. Favorite ED-quote: "nothing tastes as good as thin feels" I know, I know, we've all hear that one but it is just so true!